January 2010 not only marked the beginning of a new year but it marked the beginning of a new life journey spiritually and mentally for myself. The very first memory I have of this new year is my trip to New York City with Amanda. With everything in my life completely changing as the previous year ended, I felt like I needed to get away and breathe and think about my next move. I can remember getting on the plane and closing my eyes and asking God to open my mind, body, and soul to new experiences and new ways of thinking. I was always told to be careful what you wish for...because the events that would follow this trip would completely transform me as a person and most importantly as a mother. Thank you Manhattan for inspiring me to want to experience different CULTURE. The city was amazing to say the least. I had never seen so many beautiful people of every different race and cultural background come together in a city before. There were crazy homeless beggers on the streets shouting for money or food. Walking through Little Italy you could see Italian families coming together and greeting one another with smiles, laughter, hugs and kisses. Some were even on the street corners speaking Italian and inviting anyone walking by to come in and grab a bite of their pride and joy...their delicious food. Little China was another adventure in itself. There is one girl that stuck out in my mind and I will never forget her. She was a thin beauty in this over sized coat and she couldn't be over the age of twenty one. She was a hustler. This poor girl was out on the streets day by day begging tourists to buy what I would consider stolen designer items. Most people would consider this act illegal and wrong...I on the other hand would call it survival. That's what all these people had in common. They all just want to survive.
March 2010 Isaiah Gabriel made it to the age of three :) His laughter, smiles, hugs, kisses, and chatter bring so much joy to my life it's breath taking. I love him more than anything else in this world. He is my pride and joy. I also turned twenty three. My birthday was a memorable one to say the least. I was eating dinner at one of my favorite restaurants with two of my girlfriends. We were having a good time sipping wine and giggling and then walks in my ex and a date. Happy Birthday Hannah. Now if you know me you know I have shitty luck. And this would only happen to me. I know my girlfriends were freaking out at the time because no one was sure how I would react to this situation. It was like I was in a movie. Not only did he walk in on his first date since we had split but the poor guy had to sit and wait for his table about four feet from the table I was sitting at. AWKWARD. And if you know me you know I enjoy awkward moments. What did I do? I leaned over as far as I could with a shit grin on my face and waved obnoxiously at both of them. (E if you're reading this...sorry haha.) You would think that I may have been a little annoyed that my birthday dinner was interrupted by this but I actually walked away from that situation with a feeling of joy because for the first time I knew he was ready to move forward with his life and I knew that he would be okay.
April passed and family vacation came in May. This was the first family vacation we had in a couple of years. It was nice to see my parents away from work and relaxing for once instead of doing what they do best...and that is take care of everyone around them and forget about themselves. I enjoyed bonding with Kristi. We are so far apart in age so it was a little difficult building a relationship with her growing up, but as we are getting older and wiser we have grown to love each other and respect our differences. I know she thinks I'm crazy most of the time but I hope that one day she can see things from my point of view and learn to take life one day and moment at a time :) I LOVE YOU. Of course "little man" was there enjoying the ocean breeze and hanging out with his cousins. He loves the beach so much and I'm so glad I can give him the opportunity to experience it year after year. My favorite part was spending time with my brother. My best friend. Jake and I have had a bond since we were young. I am the person I am today because of him...the good and the bad :) I miss him dearly and I am so happy that he has Marsha and the kids in his life. It was awesome spending time with them and they give me hope that one day I will too have a family as beautiful as theirs :)
June was Cozumel. So much to say about this trip and so little time. I'll write a whole entire blog about this experience at a later date. Thanks Amy Troy Phil Jake Marsha and Ryan for a family vacation of a life time.
July. The Month I gave In. July marked the first month that I dated someone as a single mother. I had been contemplating this move for some time now. Not only do I have to think of myself when letting a new person come into my life but most importantly I have to think of my son. With this guy that wasn't a problem at all. I can remember the first time bringing Isaiah meet him and he told me from the back seat "Mom I think I'm going to have to give him some hot ones." It made me nervous but so proud at the same time that my baby boy just wanted to protect me, even at the age of three :) No "hot ones' were needed they immediately hit it off and things were going good...for a whole two weeks. And as my luck would have it..he got transferred to another state thousands of miles away for work. But as they say everything happens for a reason.
August came around and so did my trip to Pittsburgh. I got to experience a new city and a new man. Thank you for teaching me to open my mind up about different PEOPLE and MUSIC. Although we tried...the chemistry just wasn't there and the romance quickly faded. I think we will be friends for a long time and he's a very talented person :) Although rejection sucks, I think people should realize that most relationships in life will not work out. Love is rare and precious and extremely hard to find. I think you meet new people to find out more about yourself and about others and to figure out what you want and what you don't want in a lover. So the next time someone breaks up with you just don't take it so personal. People change, situations change, feelings change and you should live your life based upon your feelings and emotions and happiness. Because when you're at your happiest moment you will love and give to others like never before.
September was filled with books, school, new inspirational friends, and MEDITATION. I tried to do this before but I always get caught up in the chaos of life I never would stick it out. Just taking thirty mintues a day to breathe and focus your mind to clear all the clutter. It's amazing what you can actually get out of life when you free your mind from the trash and bullshit that stops you from living in the moment and appreciating the blessings and simple things that life has to offer.
So all this brings me to October. I'm still a single mother. Working and going to school full time to make a better life for myself and my kiddo. Voodoo Fest is near and I cannot wait to experience NOLA MUSIC AND CULTURE. I'm also looking forward to seeing what the year's ending will bring. Until next time kids :)
March 2010 Isaiah Gabriel made it to the age of three :) His laughter, smiles, hugs, kisses, and chatter bring so much joy to my life it's breath taking. I love him more than anything else in this world. He is my pride and joy. I also turned twenty three. My birthday was a memorable one to say the least. I was eating dinner at one of my favorite restaurants with two of my girlfriends. We were having a good time sipping wine and giggling and then walks in my ex and a date. Happy Birthday Hannah. Now if you know me you know I have shitty luck. And this would only happen to me. I know my girlfriends were freaking out at the time because no one was sure how I would react to this situation. It was like I was in a movie. Not only did he walk in on his first date since we had split but the poor guy had to sit and wait for his table about four feet from the table I was sitting at. AWKWARD. And if you know me you know I enjoy awkward moments. What did I do? I leaned over as far as I could with a shit grin on my face and waved obnoxiously at both of them. (E if you're reading this...sorry haha.) You would think that I may have been a little annoyed that my birthday dinner was interrupted by this but I actually walked away from that situation with a feeling of joy because for the first time I knew he was ready to move forward with his life and I knew that he would be okay.
April passed and family vacation came in May. This was the first family vacation we had in a couple of years. It was nice to see my parents away from work and relaxing for once instead of doing what they do best...and that is take care of everyone around them and forget about themselves. I enjoyed bonding with Kristi. We are so far apart in age so it was a little difficult building a relationship with her growing up, but as we are getting older and wiser we have grown to love each other and respect our differences. I know she thinks I'm crazy most of the time but I hope that one day she can see things from my point of view and learn to take life one day and moment at a time :) I LOVE YOU. Of course "little man" was there enjoying the ocean breeze and hanging out with his cousins. He loves the beach so much and I'm so glad I can give him the opportunity to experience it year after year. My favorite part was spending time with my brother. My best friend. Jake and I have had a bond since we were young. I am the person I am today because of him...the good and the bad :) I miss him dearly and I am so happy that he has Marsha and the kids in his life. It was awesome spending time with them and they give me hope that one day I will too have a family as beautiful as theirs :)
June was Cozumel. So much to say about this trip and so little time. I'll write a whole entire blog about this experience at a later date. Thanks Amy Troy Phil Jake Marsha and Ryan for a family vacation of a life time.
July. The Month I gave In. July marked the first month that I dated someone as a single mother. I had been contemplating this move for some time now. Not only do I have to think of myself when letting a new person come into my life but most importantly I have to think of my son. With this guy that wasn't a problem at all. I can remember the first time bringing Isaiah meet him and he told me from the back seat "Mom I think I'm going to have to give him some hot ones." It made me nervous but so proud at the same time that my baby boy just wanted to protect me, even at the age of three :) No "hot ones' were needed they immediately hit it off and things were going good...for a whole two weeks. And as my luck would have it..he got transferred to another state thousands of miles away for work. But as they say everything happens for a reason.
August came around and so did my trip to Pittsburgh. I got to experience a new city and a new man. Thank you for teaching me to open my mind up about different PEOPLE and MUSIC. Although we tried...the chemistry just wasn't there and the romance quickly faded. I think we will be friends for a long time and he's a very talented person :) Although rejection sucks, I think people should realize that most relationships in life will not work out. Love is rare and precious and extremely hard to find. I think you meet new people to find out more about yourself and about others and to figure out what you want and what you don't want in a lover. So the next time someone breaks up with you just don't take it so personal. People change, situations change, feelings change and you should live your life based upon your feelings and emotions and happiness. Because when you're at your happiest moment you will love and give to others like never before.
September was filled with books, school, new inspirational friends, and MEDITATION. I tried to do this before but I always get caught up in the chaos of life I never would stick it out. Just taking thirty mintues a day to breathe and focus your mind to clear all the clutter. It's amazing what you can actually get out of life when you free your mind from the trash and bullshit that stops you from living in the moment and appreciating the blessings and simple things that life has to offer.
So all this brings me to October. I'm still a single mother. Working and going to school full time to make a better life for myself and my kiddo. Voodoo Fest is near and I cannot wait to experience NOLA MUSIC AND CULTURE. I'm also looking forward to seeing what the year's ending will bring. Until next time kids :)
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